June 2

Isabelle I have been thinking of you so much today. We bought some trees for the yard, while we were there I saw a little statue of a little baby in angel wings at first I wanted to get is so bad but the more that I looked at it the less I liked it because it looked nothing like you. I would love to have an angel in my garden that looked like you I feel close to you when I am out there. In a week we will get the results to find out what happened to you. I miss you so much and I wish that I could turn back time and changed what happened. I wanted to take you home so bad. I hope that some day when I see you in heaven you will still be that sweet little newborn and I will be able to hold you in my arms forever, and kiss your soft little cheeks, and look into your beautiful eyes. I usually try not to dwell on the what might have been. I understand that there is a reason that this happened and I hope that it was not something that I could have prevented. I am just fearful that I did this to you things were worse every appointment. I hope that you know that I do love you so much and tried to make it better but it didn't matter what we did the outcome constantly changing for the worst. I love you so much my sweet little angel and my heart has fallen to pieces, and I really do miss you, every part of you.